As you may have noticed, in the last few days it has been harder for me to stick to my habit no. 1. Going to bed before 2 a.m. is much easier than waking up before 11:30 a.m.! In the first days, when the commitment was fresher, it was less difficult to get me out of bed – now it’s getting harder, and harder…
I thought that with the new ‘regularity’ I wouldn't need to sleep so much and that eventually I would begin to wake up a bit earlier, and actually feel rested – which, so far, hasn't happened. But maybe it’s too soon for that…
I wonder about the reasons for my sleepiness, and my difficulty in getting up at a ‘decent’ time. I think there may be three main reasons:1) My depressive moods (one of the possible effects of depression is sleeping too much);
2) The fact that my mind doesn't seem to fully rest while I’m asleep (I have vivid dreams with complicated plots, and I frequently remember them in detail…);
3) The fact that I may still be suffering from the long-term side effects of Isotretinoin (I was subjected to an acne treatment in 2006 with powerful side effects – one of these side effects may be tiredness - and even depression).
The thing is, my apparent inability to ‘control’ my sleeping habits has a strong negative effect on my self-esteem and, consequently, on my moods – and this creates a negative cycle, with negative moods further potentiating my sleeping chaos.
Still, and so far, I was able to wake up before 11:30 a.m. 62% of the time, which is much better than my previous lower ‘success’ ratio (<5%) :P So, nonetheless, this has been a great exercise and I will continue doing my best :) And, of course, I will report on my progress regularly.
Now, let’s change the subject... :)
I spent my Saturday sewing, and here is a picture of my new finished cover:
This one is going to the UK!
Hope you had a wonderful weekend!
See you soon ;)
P.S. I'm always delighted to hear from you in the comments section!