Today I'll be reflecting a bit on my Habit no. 1 ('Creating a regular and healthier sleeping schedule'). You can see the current graph with my bed and wake up times in the tab above.
Percentage of times I went to bed before 2 am: 76%.
Percentage of times I woke up before 11:30 am: 48%.
What went well:
I managed some regularity in my bed times. This is good, because:
- I no longer went to bed at crazy times (like 4, 5 or even 6 am!). These crazy times used to make me feel very tired and depressed the next day;
- I knew at what time I had to 'end my day', and so I was able to better manage my daily activities.
I only woke up at the 'desired' time interval 48% of the times. This is far from my ideal, but is still much better than what I used to do (< 5%).
(Yes, I do sound like an engineer with all these graphs and percentages... And practicing my 'technical English' in the thesis doesn't help either! Bleh...)
What didn't go so well:
Oddly, I've been feeling sleepier and sleepier in the mornings. I.e., it's getting harder to wake up at the time I want...
As I shared in a previous post, when the commitment was fresher it was easier. Then it got more difficult. I guess I began to see my accountability here in the blog as a burden, and I felt ashamed of my lack of 'success'. This shame further depressed me and demotivated me.
But, rationally, I definitely don't wish to regard this as yet another failure. Instead, I'm choosing to see it as an experience with value, from which I can learn a few things...
And now what?
I've decided I'm going to focus on the things which I feel I can control. These things are:
- Bed time;
- Physical exercise (which, they say, improves the quality of sleep!);
- Creating a 'morning' pleasant routine for those days in which I actually manage to wake up at the time I decide.
I'm not sure if I'll continue posting my daily graphs here, but I'll certainly keep reporting on my progress regularly.
And I would love to hear suggestions from anyone who also has (or had) a difficult relationship with mornings!
See you soon :)